Good morning world

Miss my muse, MY Love.  But I am obviously a fucking moron. Miss her voice so much.  Her eyes and her most of all, kissing her. 
Even with these attempts to date, it is so far from where my heart is. I admit, I do need this, this walled up less aching self. But underneath the surface lay still, so strongly what no one else can have from me. That's simply my Love. 
I'm trying, I really am. It is getting easier, yet at the same time, reminds me of what its like to be with someone you truly care about. 
Maybe, my biggest flaw of so many, is I don't know how to not love her. I can be mad, hurt, angry, rejected and everything else. But she lit up my life.  In just being a part of it.   Always will Kate be the One Love.  Not because of closure or any bs.  Maybe, because she touched parts of me without trying to. Ones no one saw entirely.     Hope she is well and doing great, she is strong, she will Always be.   Always want the best for Her and Sav.  Best I stay away forever, I cannot even attempt friendship, with someone I will always Love.
Stood by as a friend when she dated, hoped the best for her even though I was so envious and wished it was me. 
Fool, yes I am, hurt, sure. Understand, yes I do.   But will Always reserve the best of my heart and love for those two ladies. Kate and Sav.  

So I shall continue to go through the motions, I need the smiles and fun. 

Please take care if this is read. Always Love You, I can't change that fact.       LoL, Always Micheal James Christy

Down

No more

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Good morning world

Oh. How I miss thee.

Down... tonight!

Fuck YES!   Bethany, Down, beers and fun....so fuckin needed.  
Well update, gunna ditch her at this show too!  Yes I'm such a classy date. Lmao, convo for the ride atleast.... bwa ha ha...few get my respect these days.  New huh....ha ha......    argh

Put it off and put it off

Now it may be time.....

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Yawns

Facepalms, bangs head into concrete...ahhhh mooch mooch betta fo sho

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My long lost niece

The one Kaitlyn got her middle name from. And her son Wyatt. Proud of that young lady, Kaitlyn adores her cousin Ashely.
Long talks about my brother. Time holding my great nephew. And then the blues set in a little. Wish he wouldn't have done what he did. 
Yesterday was a day for remembrance for everyone being 911....  it did seem a fitting day to meet her finally. Bro, you would be proud of Ashley. And Wyatts a doll.     Miss ya

Something I need to say

Surely enough time has past, but not for me.   The gifts I spent hours seeking out, are surely in some landfill in Oz.  But know this, I will always cherish every minute and thing we had. Do I have to? No.  Why do I?  Because I am not able to flip the switch so simply. Respectfully I lost a lot more than some long shot future far away with some Beautiful and Proud woman. Lost my best friend who I also was madly in love with. Wish I could seperate those two feelings, for I do miss her and Sav a lot.   But I cannot. Another of my many faults I realize.
Always will wish her the Very Best. 
She wasn't in my life to set me free. We both deserve so much more and something real. And for awhile, as far apart as it was in distance. We had that.   Someone who loved us for who we are, flaws and all.   And I shall always see in her, that deep Beauty and hidden jaded Heart. 

With all the Respect I can give,   You will Always have one man who sees past all those walls, past the anger and hidden hurt. Proud of her for who she is.
Flaws, we all have, but hers never were severe enough to make my heart flounder.  

Always gunna have a missing bit of myself. Lost my best friend and a woman I Truly Loved Entirely.   Flawed as I am, flawed as my ego and perosnality can be, my Love was never flawed. Not for Kate.   It was the purest thing in my jerry springer life. 

Wish Her and Sav the very Best. Mean that wiht every bit of who I am.

Micheal James Christy

Ps, rip away, call me a cunt or some emo fag. Its totally ok and sad to say expected as well. But it doesn't effect it nor me. Those who judge are some of the ones who once came to me for advice. So make the judgements epic. You say more of self than of me by doing so.